April 2002
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My mom is chasing me around with a box of hair dye (dark brown) because she wants me to dye my hair.
april 11
Maria calls me on the phone so we can hang out. Her mom was going to bring her over but she couldn't, so she asked me if my mom and I could go get her. I go to ask my mom but she's running around because the wedding of a relative (an uncle?) is going to be held at the house.
april 12
My family is living at my grandma's house. We are all trying to hide because my boyfriend (?) is stalking me. Then I turn into someone else, and my family is different, but it's the same situation. We're on the highway going on a trip and suddenly I realize the dog is missing, and it's body is in the trunk. My parents say there's nothing we can do so we get back on driving. I turn back into me, we're at grandma's house, and it's dark. I finally think I'm getting away through the garage but just as I'm about to leave he grabs me from behind. I'm getting on this bus, and everyone on it is supposed to be in the Word Fest. I see Rose so I go and sit down with her.
april 15
I'm shopping at a store (Longs?) and as I'm walking around the aisles, this cop/security dude, whatever, comes up to me and wants to talk to me. They think I'm stealing because I keep putting my hand in my pocket [Which I incidentally was not, I was looking at my shopping list.] Then I'm at school to return the videos (???) I have to put each one in these different drop-boxes around the campus. I'm dropping one of on the bottom floor when I realized I haven't rewound any of them. I think for a minute "If they charge me a fine I'll just pay it" but change my mind and I'm walking around, trying to get each of the videos back, but I can't because it's late and the LRC's are all closed. I go up to the top floor, and there is a big dance going on in front of the cafeteria. It's all dark, and there is a smoke machine on. As I'm there dancing, I start smelling this weed smoke so I'm like "Ew" but of course everyone else is like "Yay!" Then while dancing I accidentally make a small tear in the sleeve of this girls shirt. I pretend not to notice even though she's trying to get my attention, so she finally makes a huge rip in the sleeve of my shirt. I decide to leave the dance, and as I'm walking around I see this huge group of people get into a fight. I go out into the back of the school, and I see my acting teacher. She's about to ride home on her bike. We talk for a few minutes and as we do, we see a group of either llamas or camels run/hop by. Then I'm at home, and there are kind of two parties going on. One is for like kids, and the other is for adults. All of the adults are looking at the collection of books and music that the kids had brought, deciding whether or not they were "appropriate." Every time they found something in a book they didn't like, they'd write it down in this notebook. I'm just sitting around watching, when this woman who is either a judge or a lawyer comes over, gives me a new tablecloth, and tells me to put it on the table. I don't want to do it at first but I'm vaguely scared of her so I do. Then she makes me tell her which chair is the most comfortable so she can sit in it. Then all of a sudden it's the next morning and Rose comes over before leaving for school to get something she'd left at our house. It was a couple of books - one of them was Korean, and the other one was a book that the adults at the party had listed as "inappropriate" so I said that when she was done, I'd like to borrow it. Then this girl (?) and I are hanging out in my parents bedroom, kissing. My dad comes in because he wants to watch TV in there, so we have to go to my room, where we kiss more.
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Dana and I are at Brenden, seeing a scary movie. There's an intermission in the middle, and she stays inside, but I go out to the parking lot. The other side of century is full of high-rises and such. It's raining and so I look for somewhere to stay dry. I spot Michelle's car across the way, so I start to walk over. On the way I see Maria, sitting on this set of bleachers (?), smoking a cigarette and looking sad. I keep going to the car and Michelle and Rose are sitting inside, Michelle smoking a cigarette. I get in and we drive off somewhere. I'm at home alone, and I leave to walk over to my grandma's house. On the way, I pass by the house of an older man (late 40's, early 50's) who I am dating. He wants the both of us to go back to my house, and even though I don't, I decide to go anyway. We go in through the back, and there are two Bo dogs. One of them is a girl. Then, along with my parents and I, there is a man and his son (who's a few years older than I am) are living in my house. The adults decide that the son and I are going to get married. His mom had lived with us too, but she was either dead or had left them. The dad told me to clean out her shelf in the hall closet, so I did. She had a bunch of cool sparkly sweaters so I put them aside in a basket to keep for myself. I'm talking with my mom about marrying the guy, and she says I have to, but when I ask her are we going to push the beds in my room together or what, she gets annoyed. I go into my room, and the guy is sitting up on the left shelf in my closet, an electrical cord noose around his neck, because he plans to hang himself. I make him take it off, come down, and talk to me.
april 26
Billy Corgan is working with the police to catch a criminal (drug dealer and/or hitman). They are sending him undercover, so they dress him up in huge, baggy, red and orange clothes, gold chains, hat, and a pair of glasses.
april 28
I'm living in an apartment in France with my parents. I go into the bathroom, intending to shower, but I keep getting interrupted. I look outside and there are a bunch of kittens prancing through the yard. When I've finally gotten undressed and ready to shower, there's a bunch of pounding at the door. These two girls who had been following me the whole dream want to talk to me. I get angry, and after dressing, run out after them, but as soon as I exit the apartment building I lose them.
april 29
I'm sitting in the living room with my mom, Rose and some guy (?) There's going to be a documentary on TV about 9/11 and my mom says we should watch it but I say "I don't want to, it's too depressing" so I go to my room. I am supposed to be going out with Maria so I start to get ready and call her on the phone. But when I pick up to dial, she's already there, and she's talking to me - but not the real me, I can't hear the replies that I'm giving her. Finally I get her attention, and she says to someone there with her "I guess I have to go with her to the bookstore." I tell her no, to go and hang out with Michelle instead. I'm outside, taking the garbage out, and even though it's very hot outside a bunch of hail is coming down. I'm lying on the couch, doing homework, and my brother comes along and we start fighting.
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