August 2003
august 2
It's Halloween and I am taking a walk along Harbor. I call Rose on my cell phone to see what she's up to, and her mom answers. Her mom tells me that I should watch The History Channel because they're showing something really cool. When I ask for Rose she says "Oh I don't know, she's doing her homework." I'm at the video store with my mom and we're picking up a couple of movies. I think we are going to be too late to get what I want but luckily there are 3 or 4 copies of "The Exorcist" so I get one. I also find "Donnie Darko" but when I open the video box it has some other movie in it. I think maybe I'll look around for that box, but decide to just tell the people when I get up to the counter. The cashier is this middle-aged blond woman named Carol that my mother seems to know, and she's talking to us. I have to fill out some weird form that needs to be updated, so I'm looking at it. Carol tells me where to put down my age and asks me to say how old I'm going to be on my next birthday, and for some reason I say 18 instead of 21. Everyone there knows so they laugh at me. I'm visiting Pitt and so I go off to Mr. Spelling's room. He is in there and his class isn't there yet but he's getting stuff prepared so I decide to leave. I'm at home and my dining room is being used as an office for the web site daily confession and they have printouts of different confessions and research they've done. I'm looking at one of the confessions and I really don't understand it. There are three circle-shaped mirrors and somehow I know that each one is supposed to reflect an image of genitalia to the person looking at it, but they (the mirrors) have all been in covered in these long strands of pearls.
august 3
My family is taking a vacation at this little cabin out in the middle of nowhere. I guess in these cabins nearby are people my dad used to work with, and everyone decides they want to have a race. It doesn't start until early evening, and I think just my dad is going to go, but so does my mom. My brother and sister go with him, and so just Rose and I are left back in the cabin. Finally the race ends really late (it's completely dark). When everyone gets back we start cheering. I'm taking part in this weird contest/race with a whole big group of people. At the end of each "level" we get to this weird dock where we have to wait for some military people to come over on this boat, and then this one dude gives a speech. On one of the levels, it is really windy and I have to hold our 'flag' (it's orange and kind of pom-pom like) and I'm afraid that I'm going to drop it. Usually we have to 'plug it in' to this weird flagpole but I'm afraid it will fall down into the water, so I just hold it up myself. Everyone in my group is discussing the last part of the race, where we have to enter this hall two-by-two, and plug something in (?) to the wall. They say it will take longer than the other teams because we have 11 people in our group. Finally the thing is over so we are at this big party in this little hall. There is music playing and lots of dancing. They are playing "Twist and Shout" at first and I am dancing with Zach and we kiss a couple of times. Then they start playing "Total Eclipse of the Heart" and Maria and Zach are talking really quietly to each other and I have this lunchbox with a bunch of these weird little candies (they taste similar to Smarties... orange, yellow, blue, purple, and one red one. Some are shaped like flowers and others are shaped like pills).
august 4
I'm at the stove making a grilled sandwich (ham and cheese I think?) and it is all black and burned.
august 6
I have to get a copy of one of my transcripts and so I ask this lady for it. She says it will be $3. I don't have any cash so I ask her if she takes credit cards, and she says no. So I go into my living room where we have an ATM and I'm trying to figure out which bills it gives out, and I see that it gives tens so I decide to do that, because she says she doesn't have change for a $20. To the left of the ATM is this weird fiber-optic looking Christmas tree. I keep pressing the buttons so that the lights and the designs on the tree will change.
august 7
I am at home with my mom, brother, and Rose. Rose and I had a sleepover the night previously, and she had lost a few things at my house so we were looking for them One of them was a rosary that we did find. My brother and I were arguing, and it had to do with something about him calling things Egyptian names or always talking about Egyptian stuff. My mom had all of this food that she was dividing, some to keep out for us to eat and the rest to put in the fridge, and she had some hard-boiled eggs she was putting in a paper bag. She gave me the bag to put in the fridge and my brother pointed to where he wrote on it, and it said "ISIS." So I got really mad and started screaming "No!" over and over. I'm back in high school and Rose and I are hanging out. It's just before lunchtime and we've just gotten our yearbooks. The bell rings for lunch and we have to fight through a swarm of people to get to our area. Dana passes us by on the way because she had to go get her backpack. I'm part of this acting group and we're rehearsing to do these skits. I have a partner who is this older guy, 40-ish. The two people rehearsing before us are this one really cute guy in his late 20's/early 30's and someone else. We watch them and listen to the director give them some tips and then it's our turn. Our scene starts off where we're dancing, and then for some reason he falls on the ground and I'm supposed to kick him over and over in the face (I am wearing this weird lavender-ish high heels). The director tells us he wants us to practice dancing more so we do. For some reason the cute guy from the other group starts dancing with us so I am happy, and we're all laughing and twirling around. I have my eyes closed and one of them licks me on the face and I was like "Ahh! Who did that?"
august 10
I go to this boarding school, and I'm hanging out with this other girl and these 2 guys who I guess are our boyfriends. We're going up the stairs to our room and a bunch of these other students, all older girls, appear and start taunting and following us. When we get to the top everyone has to sit in this circle and hold hands because they're going to tell a scary story. Dana is there and she has a baby with her. My mom picks me up from somewhere and we're going past this park. It's raining really hard outside and this Indian woman comes up to my side and asks if she can have a ride. I think that it will be OK but my mom says no and as she drives off we argue about it. While we're talking Rose and her mom keep calling me on my cell phone and keep saying the same thing over and over. I get annoyed so I call them and tell them the same thing [I so can't remember what it was]. I'm watching this TV show that looks like it took place in the 50's or maybe early 60's, about this little boy who lives with his parent. In one episode he gets this cute little hamster, and then in the next one it dies so they put it in this weird disposal thing under the sink. The dad pours in a bunch of what looks like pistachio nuts on top, to keep it from smelling bad. I'm in the bathroom looking in the mirror, and my belly button looks all bloody. Then I see I have this stab wound a few inches above it that is leaking blood. I'm with my parents in the front yard and Bo is there. All of these dogs keep running down the street and he wants to follow them, but whenever he tries, we shoot this gun up into the air so he'll stay. I get control of the gun and I'm having this really hard time pumping and shooting it so Bo gets all the way down the street, and all of a sudden he turns into this angel-shaped puffy cloud and my mom and I look at each other and say "Did you see that?" I'm talking with my parents in the house and my dad is talking about how he used to be poor, and then he's saying he's going to ask someone if they know how we can get a free phone number.
august 18
I'm at Fashion Bug with my mom and I'm trying on clothes. Instead of dressing rooms you have to change out in the main room so I'm annoyed. First I try on this weird dark pink skirt. There are a couple of guys my age going through the store and we get into an argument about something. I look at this bracelet that matches the skirt but decide I don't like it much. Then I'm over on the side and I want to try on these jeans (maybe acid washed?) but there are these two old guys who are being perverts and taking pictures of people changing, especially this blond girl in the corner who is checking herself out in front of all these mirrors. The camera is this weird one that fits into the palm of the hand, and one of the guys takes a picture of me so I flip them off, and they get all offended. I try the pants on but I have to do it 2 or 3 times because I keep forgetting to see how they actually look on me. I decide to get them and they've changed so they look nearly identical to my striped jeans. Even though they weren't the pants I came in with, I have to wear these neon pink capris with a blue flower on the front when we leave. My mom and I have Rose's car and we're driving down this hill. Something happens when we get to the bottom and we have to push it all the way back to the top. I don't know what happens to it but we have to walk down the hill to get home anyway. In front of us is this guy, and I see him going for this phone on the ground that I think is ours, so I pounce on him, but it turns out it belongs to him. So I'm kind of embarrassed but then I see this phone that is ours, but he takes it. He is trying to climb over this fence and in the meantime he's telling me about a bunch of different tapes he has for answering machines, like famous people saying something. I start screaming at him "How many phones do you have?" He gets all tangled up and stuck in the fence so I laugh at him.
august 19
It's Thanksgiving and I'm at my grandma's house. I have a stepson (?) and he is getting all freaked out and scared about this lamp in the living room. I don't like it either and don't want to get near it so I have to do something, so I bring it into the kitchen and kind of take it apart. I take off the top and there is this weird paper/plastic liner that I remove before I put the lamp back together. While I do it I'm trying to be careful because the lamp feels hot and I don't want to get burned. After I finish that I take the turkey out of the oven to baste it, but it is cut up into big, thick strips instead of just being the whole turkey.
august 20
My sister and I are in our room, packing stuff. There is a box in the closet, one of mine, that has singing coming from it. The singing is really eerie and creepy (I can't remember what it said but it was these dreamy, ethereal male voices) but I'm trying to ignore it because I'm too scared to look for it and make it stop. My sister can't stand it anymore and so she brings me the box. I open it and it's full of these dark green, pyramid shaped candles. As soon as I open the box the singing stops.
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I'm on this playground and I'm being chased around a jungle gym by the devil.
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I'm at home and Dana and Rose come over. I think "I still need to give Dana her birthday present" so I hand her this gift-wrapped package I think is it. She opens it and a bunch of random stuff comes out. I realize that I must have packed her present already.
august 28
I'm in this aerobics class and I get there late so I'm having a hard time finding a spot. I'm in the back and I bump into the teacher so she puts me and three other girls in this group, and we have to put our arms around each others shoulders and do a certain step. I'm having a really hard time and can't do it so she separates me from the group and makes me wear this weird cream-colored smock. It has a design of small, red flowers on it. Then later all of these screens are set up so people can play video games. It comes with this weird gun controller, because it's a shooting game, and you can choose different places to go. First I'm in this place where I have to shoot a bunch of muppets, then I choose one that has a bunch of people from MTV on it. The guy next to me is making fun of me at first, saying I won't be able to play, but I have a higher score than him so I laugh. I'm at this restaurant and I get mad at someone so I pull out this gun. Then I run off, out through my living room, and down the street. On the way I pass by a cop. I go around the block but I stop and turn around because there are a bunch of dogs down the street fighting and I think they will attack me. When I get back in the house my dad asks me what all the noise was, and I say I was watching a movie. I'm at the new house and in my parents bedroom, which is in a basement (?). Absolutely everything is white, and it's really cold and breezy down there.
august 29
I'm at the movies with some blond girl and we're at the snack bar, trying to get something to eat. I have three coupons: one for this pizza made with a really thin crust, one for a pretzel, and one for I think a hot dog. It's really loud in there and I'm shouting to the woman behind the concession stand but she can barely hear me. Everything gets really dark because the movie starts and I have to whisper. I ask her if I have to go to the other snack bar now and she says no. She starts to get our food, but it's the wrong stuff. When she turns away to get something else, the blond girl pulls at my arm and we run out of the theater and over to Target to get our snacks there instead. We don't get anything there, and I spend a lot of time looking at clothes (a nightgown, some scarves). We go back to the movies to see "Jeepers Creepers 2." Afterwards we go to this store out in the middle of nowhere, and it's been run by this one guy for a long time. He has a whole bunch of clothes and really cool stuff. It's really crowded but everyone leaves and is just walking around. I'm out in the front yard of the house (the store is in the back of his house I think) and I see this man who lives in the house next door. His house is this huge, white plantation looking place. I go over to the store man and I say to him "You know, I think there's something wrong with your neighbor. He's not right somehow." I catch up with a bunch of people who'd been in the store and they're all excited because they just saw some weird lady that they want to know more about, so we start to follow her on foot and fall down onto the ground when she turns and looks back. Then she gets in her car and drive off so a bunch of us gang up on some other woman in this parking lot and take her huge van so we can follow the first woman. We lose track of her pretty soon. I go to this really cool thrift store with my mom, and they have a bunch of these really cool dolls. I almost get one that looks like a flapper, but it's $8 and I don't want to spend that much.
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