October 2004
october 1
I'm hanging out with a group of kids my age. They want me to use a Ouija board. I know they're going to try to do something bad to me, so I agree to use the board if the leader of the group will use it with me. One of the girls seems really excited because she thinks I have a crush on the guy. Most of the group leaves to go find him, while I stay back in my room with a couple of the girls. The Ouija board is also this decoration I have up in my room. It's this weird, heavy box that has letters like a Ouija board and also a small picture of the Virgin Mary. I'm scared to look at the thing when the room isn't bright. Everyone comes back so we get ready to use the board. It changes and we're at this place that looks like the Shoreline Ampitheater. We're behind the stage while there's a show going on, and a man says that whoever wants to be naked can be. A bunch of the girls from the group go up there. It changes back to my room and a blond guy and I are going to use the board. As soon as I touch the planchette it goes off the board and to a spot on the carpet. The blond guy makes a circle around the spot in pen. The planchette also leads me to a couple of whitish stains on the carpet. The blond guy and I are in the spirit world, walking around. All of the spirits live underground. We peer down into this cave and the blond guy asks them if they would give cigarettes to him or to me? They give us each two. We're underground, and all of the spirits (they look just like solid, living people) are wearing these dark blue t-shirts. The blond guy does something bad and disappears, so the spirits take me and lock me in the supply closet of this hospital/clinic. I'm in there by myself, just singing (really loud and really well) about how I'm trapped. This guy comes and opens the door and asks me a bunch of questions. I'm trying to escape and he's following me around. He asks why I'm there and I say I know it has to do with a guy I like, that he didn't do it directly but that he is definitely behind it all. To get out of the place I have to pass through this pharmacy. A little girl sees me and starts yelling, so I grab her by the arm and drag her out to the street so I can catch a cab. She's still screaming and I'm whirling her around in circles. A cab comes and these three boys almost take it, but I push them out of the way (and push the girl away) so I can get in. In the back of the cab, on the floor, is a letter. It's from the group of kids who got me in trouble. It just has a smiley face on it, and I know they want me to know they're happy I'm in trouble. I just smile and flip off the piece of paper.
october 7
We're living at the old house. Dana calls and asks if I want to go to Albertson's with her, because there are a lot of garage sales in that neighborhood right now. I agree and keep her on the phone while I tell my parents, who are in the living room with me. I'm sitting on the couch, which has its back up against the window. Dana interrupts me while I'm telling my parents about driving out to see her; she says she's talking about the Albertson's in Fairfield, so she will pick me up. We're at a garage sale with Maria and Gina. At the same time, Maria and I find these really cool purses - they're both pink, and one has pictures of cherries (I take that one) and one has pictures of martini glasses (Maria takes that one). I look inside the purse I choose and there's a cute Strawberry Shortcake doll that I give to Gina. It's Halloween and I'm walking around this apartment complex. I go into one that is the office of a college professor. She and another woman are doing an experiment on this guy who is really violent. He's lying on top of an examination table with his face/shoulders covered with a dark red towel, and the women are massaging him. I borrow a portable stereo from the professor and leave, making sure to close the door very quietly so the guy doesn't wake up. I use the radio to play music while I'm dancing with Maria and Dana and Gwen. Dana and Gwen are pretty much refusing to dance with me, and my feelings are hurt but I try to pretend everything's cool. One of the songs we play is "Rock the Casbah" by the Clash. When we're done, I take the radio back to the professor, who is just ending a class session. I ask her how the experiment with "Mike" meant, not knowing he's right there (because I never saw his face) and she tries to shush me. He doesn't notice, just smiles and says hello. He seems really friendly so I'm wondering if he's the guy. The professor says that I don't have to return the radio; she gives me the cord so I can plug it into the wall instead of just using batteries. I look at the plugs and one of the little prongs is messed up, and I know that she's trying to hurt me. I try to throw the plug away when she's not looking, but she keeps watching me. I think she and Dana are both plotting against me because Dana won't let me get rid of the plug or the radio either. I go with her, Maria, ?Mark? and maybe other people to visit Pitt. I go to my old locker and I have the hard time getting it open because of the way it's designed (see picture below). My lock is the only one like that. My combination is 27-31-15.
When I get the locker open I find a bunch of really cool stuff that I'd forgotten there - old purses, notebooks, etc. I find a Troll doll and Dana tells me she wishes she'd gotten one that she'd seen at the garage sale for me, but I tell her that they kind of freak me out. I'm putting a bunch of stuff in a plastic bag to take away. I'm trying to shove the radio in with the pile of stuff I'm going to leave behind, but Dana is still watching me. In one plastic bag that is full of sand, I find a bunch of vials of glitter (silver, gold, red, blue) that Dana had given me. She gets upset, saying I didn't want them after all, but I tell her I had just forgotten them is all. It changes to where Dana and I are in this weird shed that's in the backyard of my grandparents old house. In this one closet, there are a bunch of pictures in frames. One of the pictures is just the inside of a dogs mouth. I leave the shed to get something in the yard proper and I see the dining room light in the house turn off. I know someone's in there and I try to walk back to the shed calmly. The light starts going on and off like crazy and I know I've been caught. Before the person comes I'm trying to get a bunch of papers (old letters, notes, etc) together to shove back into the closet where they'll be safe. As a punishment these two people give me this huge stack of bills that I have to pay, but the most important one (I forget what for) I don't have a paper for, is $500. The people take me to this trailer park with them because they have to check on this one family. In my stack of bills, one of them is doctors bills for one of the boys, who is sick. I still have the radio and plug from before and I consider giving it to the kids, but I'm afraid that they might get hurt if they use it.
october 9
It's the end of the world and there's all this crazy stuff going on. I'm outside in this huge desert-looking area that's totally trashed. It's night and there's fireworks in the sky. There's a plane dropping these huge, heavy boxes onto the land and whatever's there. I'm with these other three people (two men and a little girl) in this car. We're all OK but trying to look dead, thinking maybe the plane won't drop anything on us. It changes to where we're inside my old house, and we're all hiding in my parents room from someone who's bad. One of the men is upset and freaking out and I'm trying to get him to calm down and be quiet. I have this weird pen/needle that I keep poking holes in the mattress with. In each hole I can look down into the bed and there's this weird rainbow colored stuff inside of it. It changes and the men and the little girl are no longer there. It's the next day, and my family has some people staying with us: A man in his 40's, a woman and her baby girl, and a boy (14ish) and his younger sister. The house is really unorganized and there's all kinds of chaos. I'm wearing just a towel and I go into the bathroom to brush my teeth, and the man is in there talking to the woman, who's in the tub, also giving her baby a bath at the same time. I end up falling over into the tub and I'm annoyed. Later I'm at a store (Costco?) with my dad and with the boy. We find a bunch of this Christmas stuff, like these personalized stockings. One of the stockings has his sister's name on it (Polly). I'm looking at the stocking and trying to figure it out, because there's this feathery stuff on it that I peel off like a sticker. I think it must be a decoration that is supposed to be on there, but when it is, you wouldn't be able to put anything inside the stocking.
october 12
I'm driving and having serious problems with the Jeep. I'm in downtown Pittsburg and sometimes my brother and sister are with me. The car has another gear with the letter 'S' marking the shifter, and it's supposed to make the car rise up higher. Something is wrong with it and only the right side of the car goes up, and it feels as if we're going to tip over but I take it out of that gear just in time. We get out of the car and I call someone on my parents on my cell phone to come pick us up. I get bored waiting and realize that we're close to our old house, so I ask my brother and sister if they want to go. They say yes and so we get back into the car, which is still not working right, and I almost crash into someone's garage.
october 14
I'm at home, looking through the phone book. Next to people's names (it's listed alphabetically by first name instead of last) it lists a 3- or 4-digit number. If you dial a certain phone number and then type in that code, it will tell you where the person's voting place is. I'm bored and calling it over and over again to see where people I know are voting. I hang up and then pick up again, and the phone on the other end starts thinking. I'm glad, thinking that it redialed itself instead of me having to do it, but when it picks up on the other end, it's some phone sex service and there's a man on the other end breathing hard, so I hang up.
october 17
We're at home, but our kitchen looks like the one in my grandma's old house. There's a bunch of food I've taken out of the fridge and put on the counter. Rose's mom is there and she says the chicken parmigiana looks good, but I tell her it's probably been in the fridge too long to eat, now. There's some other dish with noodles and the noodles have turned green. Rose calls me on the phone because I have a bunch of her bills. I start to read them to her (what they're for and the amount due) but she tells me only to tell her about the ones that are $40 or more. There's only one. The rest of them, including the phone bill, are only about $5 each. We hang up, and I call back in a few minutes because I'm supposed to tell her about any food we have that cost $40 or more. Leigh answers the phone and says to Rose, "I didn't know you had a sister." Rose asks if she can call me back, and I say yes. I have this little Virgin Mary statue and the arms on it keep changing positions and I'm getting freaked out. My mom has been out and pulls up in the driveway, so I go out there. Our driveway is really big. I tell her about the statue and she agrees with me that I should have my dad get rid of it. Before we do that, we drive to someone's (?) house. Only my mom gets out and I'm sitting in the backseat of the van. She forgot to put the car in park so the car is moving and keeps nudging the woman's garage door (the woman is right out there with my mom and is like panicking). I keep trying to put the car in 'S' gear (S for stop, I'm thinking) and finally it stops. The woman calms down when we lie and tell her that I don't have my license, and there are no marks on her garage door anyway. My mom and I go back home, and I run upstairs to tell my dad about the statue. He comes to my room with me and when he picks up the statue, it turns into this baby doll with really long arms and legs. He agrees with me that it's creepy, like this medical device he has to help people with different problems. It makes different sounds that fix the problems, and the default sound is a heartbeat which does sound weird. I tell him to throw the statue away, and wonder if he should break it, but decide not, because I don't want an evil spirit to get out. My mom is driving me, my grandmother, and Maria around. We're stopped somewhere (post office?) and my mom isn't in the car. There's this really pretty girl standing around on the sidewalk and this older guy who keeps bugging her. He goes away and the girl comes to the car and asks Maria if she wants to go out with her, and Maria does, so they make a date for next Friday. We drive to the old haunted house in downtown Pittsburg. The sisters who own it are there and let Maria and I look around. My mom gives me my doll "Cina" that I've had forever, and she's changed it back to the original outfit and what my mom says is the original hair, which is brown. Maria and I open this one door to a downstairs room. The carpeted stairs have to be pulled out of the wall so you can walk down them into the room. I see a man in there and I know he's a ghost so we run off. We look around another bedroom, which is really tiny and so narrow that we can't even stand side by side. I'm at home, checking my e-mail, and I have one from one of the sisters, who has invited me for dinner at their place on next Saturday, the 19th.
october 23
There's something wrong with the Jeep so I drive it to this repair shop in Pittsburg. When I get inside the office of the place, it turns out to be the office where I used to work. My ex-boss sees me and starts saying that she doesn't hope I'm there to get hired again. She says they hired two people after me, and now they're looking for someone else. I tell her I'm not and I ask her where the office for the car repair shop is. Everyone tells me they moved their office to Brentwood. There's a new computer there, waiting for someone to install Windows on it. I tell this girl that I'd like to do it, but I'm too afraid of messing things up. She asks me if I can help her on a project. She wants me to scan some pictures of some bracelets for her. I don't really want to but I tell her I can for just awhile - it's 1:40 and I tell her that I have to leave at 2:00. My family is at the old house and it's Thanksgiving. Everyone is there. There's this old tablecloth that belongs to my grandma on the table. One of my cousins tells me it's really dirty (it has a lot of crumbs on it). These weird little cartoonish flames show up and I manage to put them out, but more and more keep showing up all around the house, so I start screaming "Fire!" and everyone runs out. My parents make my brother and sister and I go inside. I run into my room to grab my purse. I wonder if my parents are ever going to come out and finally they do, and they say that the fire is out. I'm hanging out with Dana, Maria and Gwen. Gwen is driving and we're on Harbor in Pittsburg. There's a carnival where the old Country Waffles place was. Maria needs to go to Save Mart so Gwen pulls into the parking lot. It changes to this weird little road, and we go into this small clothing store in the back. I find four cute shirts - they're all white and say something about California - but then I look at the tags and they're all too small (one of them is a size 5), so I put them on a random rack. It turns into the mall, and Gwen is no longer there, but Mark is. He and Dana and Maria and I go to get some pizza from Sbarro's. I'm wearing this really short pink skirt, and I have to keep pulling it down to keep my underwear from showing. I haven't shaved my legs and I'm really embarrassed but no one else seems to notice. At the counter at Sbarro's, Mark asks what I want on the pizza. I say he can get whatever he wants, and if I don't like a topping, I'll just pick it off. He orders a whole pepperoni pizza, but instead he and Maria and I get two slices each, along with some garlic bread. Dana gets a quesadilla. She and the guy at the counter get into some long discussion and she uses the word "negotiation" and he has no idea what it means, so I give him this really long definition. I get back home and there's a huge party going on at my house. I really want to shave my legs and there are some people in the bathroom (showering, I think - the bathroom is warm and steamy) so I kick them out and get in myself. I'm worried that someone might have used or done something to my razor so I change the head on it.
october 25
I'm working at this office and my boss and I are going over some evaluations of other employees. There's another girl working there who keeps begging me to tell her what he says, because he calls me on the phone from his office to talk about it, so I finally agree. We're standing in the hallway outside his office and he opens the door and tells me to go in. The girl goes in first and tries to sit down, but he makes her leave and I mouth "sorry" to her as she closes the door. It's later and I'm at home, and I get this phone call from a little boy who says someone has kidnapped him, and I'm the only one who can help him and I must not tell anyone else. I think it's a joke so I tell my family about it and kind of hang out around the house for awhile. Later on I'm alone and get another call like that, this one from a boy named Kevin, and he sounds really sick and weak. I start believing this time so I leave my house and start driving around trying to find him. I'm driving around in Antioch and pull over to the side of one street, because I have to go press the little button for the crosswalk. Nearby is this man who's also parked by the sidewalk, standing next to his car. On the sidewalk itself are these three little boys who I know are his children. The man has a gun and I know he's going to do something so I try to shield the little boys, trying to comfort them in Spanish (they're scared). The two littlest ones run away, and I manage to get the oldest back into my car and drive off with him. We end up over in Pittsburg near my grandmothers house, and there's a woman there who knows who I am and thinks I'm a criminal that's kidnapped the little boy. She keeps trying to get me to tell her who I am and what's my phone number, but she finally leaves me alone, saying she feels sorry for my mom for having a criminal for a daughter. I'm trying to start the Jeep up but it won't do a thing, and finally this guy comes along and helps me. It's later and I'm at home. Maria is there and I'm yelling at her because she knows the girl from my office (who wanted to know about her evaluation) and that girl is the one who got me mixed up with this kidnapping thing in the first place.
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