November 2004
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I'm at at my grandmother's house, and Rose and her mom are there. It's New Year's Eve. There's this thing going on around the whole world where helium-filled balloons are tied in different places, and at midnight all of them will pop and confetti will come out. At my grandmother's house, there are a bunch tied to the garage door. The thing happens at midnight, but I miss it, and I'm sad because I'd brought a camera to take a picture of it. Not all of the balloons unpopped, so Rose and I take those into the house. Lots of them end up getting popped on the acoustic ceiling. We go into the garage itself and there's a random guy undressing. Rose's mom tells him to put his clothes back on while Rose and I take a bunch of stuff from the garage (mostly her clothes) into the house. I'm at Longs and there's lots of cute little things (candles mostly) that I want to buy. I know I shouldn't but everything is $2.95 each so I think maybe I can get a few. I'm supposed to go hang out with Dana, Maria and Mark at some cafe. I'm driving into the parking lot and I see them walking in so I stop the car in the middle of a lane and get out to talk to them. Mark asks me if I'll buy him a soda and I say yes, but I have to go park the car first. After I do that, I'm walking around the little shopping center the cafe is in, and there are doughnuts on the ground everywhere.
november 10
Other people are living in our house and one of them is this cute-ish guy around my age. I'm downstairs and head up to his room. On my way past the front door, I see these three men sitting in a car outside. I somehow know that they're mad at the cute guy because he's white and he's dating a Latina (me), but I'm wondering why they're mad at him, and neither of us know them anyway. Up in the guys room, I want to sit down, but I have to clear off this weird, little seat that looks like a mini-daybed. It seems everytime I've cleared everything off, some new stuff appears. Later, I'm in what looks like my parents room, but I know that I'm in a boarding school on Angel Island. From the window, I can see two other boarding schools behind us. I'm hearing this narration in my head, about how the school I'm attending is the worst because there is a landfill right next to it. I'm trying to have a cigarette but I'm having a hard time getting the lighter to work. When I finally do, the cigarette keeps coming unrolled.
november 13
We're living at the old house. Only me, my mom, and Greg are there. Greg is trying to kill me. I keep screaming for my mom but she's asleep and will not wake up for anything. I'm carrying around this dining room chair to keep Greg away from me. Finally my mom wakes up, and my dad and grandparents get to the house. I go to stay with my grandmother for awhile. Rose is there, and so are Lynn and her kids. It's Ash Wednesday and Rose and I are walking around Pittsburg. All of the Catholic churches in town have these iron fences that they set on fire and then when the fires go out, you're supposed to scrape off the ashes and put some on each of your cheeks and on your forehead. On the gate Rose and I get our ashes from, there are two huge doberman pinschers behind it.
november 28
They're still building one of the houses next to ours, and there's a guy up there working on the second story. I go into my parents room and see he's watching my sister, who is getting dressed. I start screaming at the guy and send my sister into another room. I go tell my dad but he doesn't seem that concerned about it. I'm with a huge group of people my age, and we've been kidnapped by this husband and wife who are part of or maybe trying to start some weird cult. At first they're keeping us in a jail but later they take all of us to this neighborhood to stay in a backyard. It looks similar to the backyard at my old house, but much larger. On the lawn is this huge tarp and they make everyone lie down. I don't want to because there are these huge lumps under the tarps that I know are bodies, but I do it because they have guns and I don't want to get hurt. From where I am, I can see some people in a house next door, up in the second story bathroom, standing at the sink. They don't notice us. The husband and wife take us into the house in the morning, and shoot a bunch of people, and make some others shoot themselves. I'm so scared I almost faint. The rest of us, they keep asking us things like what we like to do or what we want to do with or lives. I tell the husband I want to be a writer and he says "That's good" and goes into some big lecture about whatever.
november 30
We're living at the old house. Some neighbors of ours are having a book sale in our back bedroom. I'm looking through them and I find this old French cookbook that has some really neat pictures from the 20's and 30's. They have the price at $18 so I decide I'll have to steal it. I go into a different room where this guy is doing this little radio broadcast through his stereo. He starts playing a Blink 182 song and then runs to the bathroom. The song finishes before he gets back, and the whole system shuts down. He's upset because he won't be able to get it working again tonight. I don't really care, and go into the kitchen to find a snack. I find a box of Ritz crackers in the kitchen, but the box is full of these weird little crackers and a gross-looking cheese dip that goes with it. I go back to the book sale and the neighbors have left it for the day, and organized everything so I can't find the book again. It changes to where I'm watching a movie, and this man has just found the same French cookbook. He tells a guy he knows about it, how he's going to get the book re-published and make a lot of money because it's the best book in the world. The guy tells someone in the mob about it, and the gangster calls the first man on the telephone and tells him to show up for jury duty at six the next morning. The guy is upset because he knows it has to do with the mob, not anything for jury duty. I'm organizing my closet and my mom is helping. Zach is there too. My mom keeps taking these pretty black blouses I have and putting them in different spots so I can't see them. I almost kiss Zach but I don't think he wants me to so I don't. He says we should hang out that night, so he says we'll meet up later. It takes me forever to get ready. I'm having problems getting an outfit together, mostly in deciding whether or not I should wear a scarf. I finally decide not to. It's really dark outside so I'm putting these flashlights together out of these cardboard kits. I get the first two done all right, but the third one has a weird flap that takes me awhile to figure out. When I do, there's all this extra cardboard that needs to be cut off, so I decide to forget it for the night and just throw it on the floor. I go outside on the porch and Zach is already there to pick me up. I apologize for taking a long time. He says it's all right, though he had to ask permission to take me out so late, and I took so long that in the meantime he went to Hooters and to a male strip club. I joke that we should go back to the strip club. It was raining outside and the grass is all squishy. Zach has driven over to my house in a white pickup truck and he opens the passenger door for me, saying he had the heater on and it might be too hot. It is warm but I say it's not bad, and either way (with or without the heater) is fine with me.
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